Child Care Blues

So I've had the "honour" of putting my daughter into child care in the form of Family Day Care. It seems to me that you need to go to the carer they pick for you and when you find your own they have a little bit of a whinge with the carer for saying that they could take you! I really hate it when people expect you to do what they say or go down the highway I mean I've never met this other carer they wanted me to go to and she lives WAY TOO far away in the wrong direction to where I need to go whereas the lady I found lives down the road from my mum! Meaning if she needs to be picked up ASAP then my mum can come home from work and pick her up without any inconveniences of travelling further!

Despite this I left my gorgeous daughter at Family Day Care yesterday. It was quite the experience..... for me not her! I mean I've never left her for 6 hours with someone I didn't know very well! Not only that but she didn't even cry! I was so nervous about the whole experience and when I needed to leave I was reluctant cause I didn't know if she was truly happy which is what it looked like to me or that she'd burst into tears any second~!

Instead this is how it went... I gave her, her cheese in her lunch bag the carer told her to sit down at the table to eat she helped her up to sit on the stool that was the perfect height for her at the table that was the perfect height for her and all I could see in my daughter's eyes was satisfaction that she had an important place to sit! She turned to face the table (away from me) as I said to her mummy has to go to work so she turns around again waves says BA which means BYE waves, blows me a kiss and turns back around to finish her cheese!!!!

I was somewhat mortified that she didn't even shed a tear!!! I mean yeah I was mortified but amazingly proud of her too! I got in my car to drive to work and burst into tears! (A sign that mood swings NEVER dissipate after pregnancy) and it was then that I realised I was crying with joy! I was so proud of her for being so independant and brave that nothing else mattered I went to work feeling that I had succeeded in being a good mother.... SO FAR!

With that said BRING ON PRESCHOOL! =) Or should I say the Early Learning Centre..

Lor