Life

Just sitting here thinking about life, and how all the things I once thought would be aren't. Sometimes it's really hard to think about all the things I hoped to have achieved in my life, not that i can't achieve those things now but it's a very different playing field, Someday's i feel like i've left so much of myself behind, alot of the things that made me me, for example Music, Music is a really big part of who i am, something that is so a part of me that it feels so unnatural to be away from it and not singing or writing, In my old neighborhood the kids used to call me "that girl that sings", When i was in high school i used to go into the music rooms at lunch and sing and kids used to climb up on the garbage bins and look in the window to see who was singing. I used to sing a lot, I had so many ideas in my head about my life and where i wanted it to go. I don't regret having my daughter i wouldn't give her up for anything but there is a big ache inside me where i'm not fulfilling my own needs. I know that all is not lost and i can still achieve all i set out to do in life but it has to be different and it will take time, but i guess that is true of everything it all takes time.