This last week my girl Krystal turned 7 !!!!! I honestly felt like crying... just wondering where all the time has gone. I was thinking about her growing up and how much I have grown too over the years.
It only feels like yesterday I had her.
I've been thinking about the past years and how much my life has changed.
I went from being a carefree 15 year old, to falling pregnant and from then my whole life changed.
having Krystal at 16 turned my life around. I was very much into the party scene and was out every night with friends. I didn't care about my family and wanted nothing to do with them. I felt as if they were just trying to control my life. At 15 I thought I knew everything and no body could tell me wrong. I had a fantastic social life, well I thought I did. I hung out with my friends everyday and we spent all night chatting away and getting up to mischief with no worries in the world. School, well that was the last thing on my mind. Most days I just wouldn't get up out of bed and me and mum would argue about it. I just wouldn't go. I seen school as such a struggle. I hated the teachers and everything about it. I thought it was the biggest waste of time.
Then I fell pregnant !!!
I first did about 7 home pregnancy tests at my boyfriends steves house. All came back positive. For some reason I thought maybe the first 6 were wrong. haha really showing my age there. When Steve came home from work I was waiting at his house with the tests. I just screamed it out. "Steve I am pregnant". His reaction was "What do you mean?" lol. he didn't even really believe me till I was 5 months along and he got to come to an ultrasound. That made things even more real for the both of us. When I told my mum I was terrified. I had never been so scared ever. I waited for the right time and said to her. "mum I have something to tell you.....im pregnant". Mum cried. Once mum stopped she had plenty of questions to ask me. One was what I was planning to do with the baby. I told her I wanted to keep it and she was the best ever. I never thought my mum would be as supportive as she is. She told me whatever I chose to do that she would be there with me every step of the way and show as much support as she can. And let me tell you, she certainly did.
During my pregnancy I stopped going out, I stopped seeing friends and even stopped going to school. I ended up very isolated.
My whole life changed. I went from party girl to stay at home mum to be/mum.
When I had my girl Krystal I had an instant bond with her. I loved her from day one. She gave me something that I needed. it was a huge shock going into parenthood, but I wouldn't have had it any other way. That was 7 years ago.
Time has just flown since then, so much has happened over the years. Krystal isn't a baby anymore she is a year one primary school student, and I have Summer too. I have gone back to study as well :) :)
Where has the time gone ?
Now 7 years later, I strive to be the best parent not only to Krystal but my second little bubba Summer. I want to give them the best life possible. I have goals now ! I want to get somewhere in life and I want to succeed as a person and a parent. I dream to be a nurse, and I know I will get there as I continue my studies. My girls give me the push. I love them so much.
Kayla !
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