Wednesday, 22 July 2015

Doubting myself. :(

So the other day I found I was having a really stressful day with my daughter, I barely had time to sit down or catch my breath because she was just being a kind of handful that I'm not normally used to. By lunch time that day I had lost my sanity & just started to doubt myself & second guess if my morals or opinions where even right to me anymore. I even found myself wishing I was still the "average teenager" I use to be, these thoughts continued through my head until I had put my daughter to bed, when I seen her sleeping so peacefully, every thought I had just vanished. I started to think to myself "how could I wish that I was still the 'avrage teen' when I have something as precious as you" 
I went to bed minutes after & I found I was bashing myself emotionally, thinking I was a horrible person for the things I had going through my head earlier that day. I eventually went to sleep & the next morning I still felt horrible, at leased until I found this post on a young mums group page of Facebook about her feeling really similar, once I clicked on it, comments after comments of other Mothers have the same feelings once in a very big blue moon, I felt at ease, I had finally worked out I wasn't a horrible person for feeling the way I did. It's normal & it's okay because at the end of the day, it's doesn't matter how different we do or say things, as Mothers we love our child/ren endlessly & equally.

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