Saying Goodbye...

This morning was a particularly hard morning. This is my daughters 2nd weekend going to her Dads house by herself. I burst into tears infront of them both this morning, I'm still teary now, I know she is ok, but I still feel an overwhelming sadness. The first weekend she was away I had plans and was busy the whole time she was gone, This time my plans fell through and i'm left without any armor.

This morning i read the words "It does get easier" on my Facebook status i haven't replied yet, but in my head i'm thinking, At which point? Furthermore, I know i need/deserve a break, but at which point will i be able to lift myself out of this sadness and begin to enjoy it, take advantage of the extra time to sleep, shop in peace or do all those other things that i say i want to when i have some time to myself? At which point will i stop feeling guilty because i feel like i need a break and because i look forward to one? At which point will this ache i feel because my baby is not with me go away? Will it ever go away? Do i want it to?

You never stop worrying about your kids, even when you know where they are and that they are safe.

I don't think it is ever easy to say goodbye, even if it is only for a short while.

LLR